Announcement

Hello!!

This blog entry will be really really small because I just have to make two announcements!
So don't expect something great.

The first announcement:

I thought my next time in Japan will in 2015 - but because of some sudden occurrences I will be already in Japan again in summer 2014!

Normally I wanted to go to other countries that summer but sadly all my plans were destroyed because of my universities exam plan... Than I met my friend Nadja who wants to go to Japan for the first time next summer. She normally wanted to go alone but was already worried because in Japan she is still underaged. At the same day she told me about it I got the news about my exam plan and so we decided to go together for 3 or 4 weeks in summer 2014 to Japan.

We are going to stay at a guestfamily in Tokyo but because of our JR rail pass we also going to visit other cities in Japan like Kyoto or Osaka. At the moment we didn't make any plan (also because we wait for the concert announcement of a special group... haha.) But I will let you know when I know more about our exact plan!!!

The second announcement:

I want to promote some unknown Japanese indie bands from now on here too. Well.. I won't tell a lot about them - because I also don't know that much about the most of them.

But I really found recently a lot of great bands. Oh - and it's gonna be J-POP bands. I think J-Rock and Visual Kei is already promoted enough from other people and from other blogs so I'm going to post from time to time links here from some J-Pop bands.

The beginning makes the duo "SORGENTI".
They even released some CD's, DVD's and have an own fanclub but still nobody knows them. But the voices are so great!!!

Here is a link to the PV of their song "MISS YOU".



You should check out their other videos also their official Youtube-Channel which is:

http://www.youtube.com/user/SORGENTVJP

They even uploaded some live performances there and you can hear clearly that they are TRULY talented an need some more support!!

Sleepless

Hello there!

This time it's just a short new blog entry and nothing special I guess!!
I just need a place to write my feelings down and this one is maybe the right one.

Today was a horrible day. The whole week was super horrible for me!
First I got really sick. I got a bladder infection (the first one in my life!). Also my voice was already away after I visited my best friend but when I got home my voice was totally away. Now slowly my voice comes back but my throat hurts SO MUCH! It's already 4:19 am in Germany. I can't sleep because I have so much pain in my throat. Every gulp hurts like someone puts a lot of needles inside it.

Because of that matter I wasn't able to go to university the whole week. I feel already so bad about that but it couldn't be helped. Still I went to Japanese lesson on Wednesday. I thought "Hey, maybe it's okay, it's gonna be better!"
But I think I should have stayed home. Not because of the lesson itself - after the lesson my train was 40 minutes too late. And after that I even missed my bus so I had to wait around 50 minutes of the next bus in the rain. No wonder I got sick again!

Tomorrow I just going to leave the house to eat something in the cafeteria of my university. Also I need to have a phone call. I get half-orphan pension. Already with the new application I told the office who is in charge of tht half-orphan pension that I have a new bank account. I can't use my old bank account because of some problems there so I told them around 3 times in different applications to use the new bank account.
Today the money arrived.
In my OLD bank account.
It's a disaster for me because I can't take the money from the old bank account for some reasons. And it was a lot of money. Because the office took some time they needed to pay me money for around 3 month - I really needed that money this month and now I can't use it. It's just gone. I am going to call them tomorrow that they PLEASE should finally use the NEW bank account but still I never see that money again and I really don't know at the moment how to buy food for this month.

It sounds kinda dramatic, right? Argh. It's not that I'm from a super poor family but we are also not wealthy. Also I don't want to ask my family always about money. They supportet me so much when I told them that I want to move to a city far away to go to university. I feel it's disrespectful to still expect that they always help me out. Of course, they are family, but still I don't want to be a burden.

I mean...
My aunt for example. I know many people discribe themself as 'super mothers' because they take care about a child alone. But my aunt takes care about two disable children and my granny almost ALONE because my mother is working long and my aunts husband was also working the whole day. While I was in Japan he had a accident in his work so he is not able to work anymore. Of course he stays now home but still he can't be a big help for my aunt because he just can move rarely at the moment. She decided to took a part-time job to have more money for her family.
And still she told me - while I was still in Japan - to support me and help me with my movement.
Once again:
- takes care about TWO DISABLE children ALONE
- takes care about my granny (who suffered from a apoplectic stroke in the past and forgets lots of things)
- takes care of her husband who just can move rarely after accident
- has a part-time job
- has two dogs
.... PLEASE! I mean.. THAT woman is not just a super mother. She is like a half goddess. And next to it she also lend me money for university, drove me with her car to my new living place and helped me with the movement.
I love my family but... I really don't want to be an even bigger burden for them.

Ahhhh...
So it's now 4:30 am. I'm sitting here, writing that stuff but I think I'm still happy and optimistic.

I mean.. yes. At the moment I am terribly sick, I don't know how to survive this month and also I heard about the typhoon. I have some friends in the Philippines and they have to be worried about Typhoon “YOLANDA”. I mean.. look at that:

It looks SO scary, right?
I hope they are all save...
BUT!

Yes, also such kind of thing happened today. But still I'm smiling! I mean.. yes, before I cried maybe a little but life is short. Too short to always complain and say "This is sad" "That is horrible" "That is so bad". Sure, life is not always bright. It's okay to cry and complain in that moment and to get out what's in your heart. But after that you should also just smile. Maybe later I wake up and some good stuff happend. Even if it's just a rainbow over my university.
You see that picture?

My friend from university took it. She also had a terrible week and couldn't go to university because she had pain in her lag. But such kinds of little wonders makes life really amazing. Maybe today wasn't that great but than tomorrow will be better.
Life is really, really too short to just cry around, complain and remember about bad things.

Life is an AMAZING thing we should cherish, right?

I am so grateful to be alive every day. No matter what happens - everything will be fine sooner or later so.. why cry around? Life is so so great. Too great to just cry again.

So please everyone! Look at that blog and... no matter how horrible it is today. Tomorrow there will be also a rainbow maybe over your house and make you realise that life is the most precious thing you have.

How I got interested in Japanese culture

Hello everyone!

I know I know!! I wanted to write a blog entry about the ONE OK ROCK concert before something else! Please forgive me, okay? Haha. I was super busy the last few days! First I visited my best friend and than I got sick. Well, I was already sick when I went to her but I wanted to see her so badly - and we just watched stuff from Takizawa-san and the A.B.C-Z Tour! So it wasn't that dramatic.

Still I wasn't able to go to unversity the last 2 days. Of course, today I want to go to Japanese lesson but my voice is still not 100 % back. I don't know what to do anymore about that. I don't want to go to the doctor. Well.. first because I really dislike doctors!!! Nothing against doctors - they might be intelligent and know what they have to do. But I really dislike to go to a doctor. And I dislike even more to go to a NEW doctor. I never went to a doctor in my new hometown but when my health won't get better I have maybe no other choice.

BUT ! I don't want to talk here about my health. That might be boring and also it's my own problem, right?
I wanted to tell you this time how I got interested in the Japanese culture. I thought some people are interested in that story. Even if it's not that interesting I think... But I am going to tell you about it now.

I think it all begun maybe with Sailor Moon? Or with games? Hmmm....
Haha. NO!! In fact... the love to ASIA begun already EARLIER!!
It all begun with the visit of me, my granny and my two uncles of the musical 'Starlight Express'. Maybe some of you know this musical? It's about trains and... well here is a little picture of it:

Yeah, the actors of the musical are actually driving on roller skates! Nowadays it reminds me about Kis-My-Ft2!!! Haha. But you might ask yourself still "How is that musical related to Japan / Asia?" Well... The main actor was an Asian man! His name is "Rommel Singson". Yeah, I even still remember his name - and I was maybe 6 or 7 years old at that time!! He is an actor from the Philippines and you can say he was the first love of my small life.

Haha! No, seriously. At that evening I shared a hotel room with my granny and I told her with sparkling eyes "GRANNY! When I am a big girl I want to marry a guy like him! He was so pretty, right? I am going to marry a man just like him, you will see!!!"

Please, don't take that serious!! I was a little girl who just felt in love with an actor who is maybe 30 years older than her!!! Haha. But I was so happy at that evening. After that day I started to get interested in things from Asia. I didn't care at that time so much if it's from Japan, China, Singepore, Taiwan, Thailand or whatever. I collected everything and I was really obsessed with that hobby! But HOW I ended up with Japan? Well, that's the next part of the story.

I know, most people of you think now "SAILOR MOON?!"
Well... No. Sorry to disappoint you! It was actually because of the game 'Final Fantasy'.

Actually my favorite uncle was a gamer. He gave me my first Game Boy and - together with my aunt - my first Super Nintendo. At his birthday party I was terribly bored. I was around 10 or 11 at that time and there were no people in my age on that party. Just adult or 'old' people. Also I still remember that I had some stomach ache on that day so I was even more in bad mood. So my uncle took me to his 'secret gamer room'. That sounds maybe funny in your ears but for me it was like a magic kingdom in that age! He had lots of computer and consoles in that room. He gave the controller of his Playstation in my little hands and said "Here, play this game, you might have fun with it. If not - tell me, okay?"
What can I say? He and the rest of the party people didn't see me for the rest of the evening.

The game was actually "Final Fantasy 7". I played it the whole evening until my mum and my dad wanted to leave the party.
On the next 2 weeks I spend my first own pocket money to buy "Final Fantasy". I didn't know at that time that there are more parts of the game so I said to the sales lady "I WANT FINAL FANTASY!!!". Well - she gave me the newest part which was "Final Fantasy 8". I have to admit that I was first super disappointed. I wanted the same game that I played at my uncles place and not that!
But after I begun to play the game and met the characters I was totally obsessed. I couldn't stop playing it! Sometimes I even had to fight a lot with my mum because I wanted to play that game more than to do my homeworks.

I asked myself than "Where is that game from? Who can make something like that?"
And I figured out: It was Japan. Not only that! Even Japanese people made the Super Nintendo and the Game Boy and the Playstation! I couldn't believe it! All that amazing things came from that country so far away?! WOAH!

Just a little time after that - finally - the anime "Sailor Moon" begun in German TV. I already watched some other stuff on TV like "Attack No. 1" but I didn't care so much. "Sailor Moon" was the first Anime who really got my interest. Also I found some friends in school or at the street where I was living who also liked "Sailor Moon". It was the first time in my life I shared such a hobby with people. I begun to buy my first Manga, to go to conventions like the "Connichi" in Germany and to go to concerts from Visual Kei and J-Rock bands. Also I just made my account at an internet platform called "Animexx" at that time - normally because I wanted to search a Fanfiction about the horror movie "Ringu". (Yeah, at the same time I also got interested in Japanese horror movies - but that's maybe another topic!) I can be happy that my parents were always people who were like "Just do what you want, as long as you are happy!". I was allowed to drive with my friends to that concerts, conventions - they even allowed me to color my hair in colors like pink, blue or green. They just didn't allow me to do piercings or such kind of things. Nowadays I am very grateful about that. I think I had a great childhood and teenager time thanks to that kind of parents.

Well - let's continue. I made even more friends after I registered into that internet platform. In my free time I began to listen to a lot of Japanese music. Mostly it was Visual Kei at that time because my first penpal send me a tape full of music from bands like Luna Sea and X-Japan. (YEAH TAPE! I'm a 90's girl! Haha.)
But slowly I also begun to get interested in the language itself and in the culture of the country. I didn't want to just watch the colorful world of Anime... I wanted to see the real Japan. I wanted to know where all that stuff is from. Most of my friends in that time were people which were mostly into cosplay and Visual Kei. But I was kinda different.
I never made a cosplay and I like Visual Kei but also I kinda always prefered other stuff like J-Pop. I enjoyed to watch Dorama more than to watch Anime slowly. I loved my friends but at the same time I felt like I am kinda different than most of them because most of them wanted to enjoy Manga, Anime and Visual Kei - but I wanted to know more about Japan and not just that kind of things.

I have to admit: Before I went the first time to Japan I had a lot of friends who were also interested in Japan. I knew before that my interest is bigger than that but I was happy how things were. But after I went there my view to Japan changed and also the people around me. Of course - I still have some of my friends with me who know me since I was 14 years old, who "grew" with me. But also I suddenly couldn't understand anymore some of the people around me who just wanted to study Japanese in university for example because of some super cool guys of bands or because they like Anime / Manga. Why they want to study a language and culture of a country they never visited - just because of THAT?
Some people even told me "I don't care what happens after I finish university. I just want to live in Japan, I don't care what I am going to do there. Everything is better there than in Germany."
I think this smiley discribes perfectly how I felt about that:

I think nowadays I have a total different view on Japan than I had when I was a little girl. As a little girl it was a sparkling wonderful wonderland where all the great stuff came from.
Nowadays it's a country with a lot of problems - but with a wonderful culture and language that I want to know more and more.

Yes, maybe I'm also sometimes a fangirl. I mean.. I like Johnnys Jimusho, I like cute stuff and so on. But still I think I have a more adult view about that things. I know that living in Japan is not the best thing I can do - especially as a foreigner. Still I want to spend some time there. Travel around, see more cities and places like Hokkaido, Okinawa, learn more about the culture...

Haha. The End of the story until now I think. If you still have questions ask, okay?

I wanted to end up that blog with some fangirl stuff:
Tanaka Koki finally opened his twitter account! YES! THE REAL ONE!!!
I feel so greatful and happy about that! I have to admit that I cried my eyes out when I read his first tweets.

He is just a great person. He is still my Number 1 idol and I will always support him - maybe even as granny!! Haha.

Well but now I really end up! Please listen to this song by the way. I heard it while I was writing this blog because it reminds me of the time when I was sitting in my room and played "Final Fantasy". I loved that song. This version is a little bit different and with no vocals - it's more a remix I guess - but still I like it!!




For reading this by the way!! I am super happy about it!!!

About Tanaka Koki - KAT-TUN

Hello!

First of all: I know it’s maybe childish to write a whole blog entry just about my favorite band. But I found so many friends because of this band and also got so much more people into my fandom because of them that I think it should be okay. Also this blog entry is not that colorful like the other ones because I’m going to explain a lot of things. Well – let’s get started.

I think everyone who is into the fandom knows that Tanaka Koki left KAT-TUN / was threw out of KAT-TUN / whatever (we will never know the true circumstances). And everyone who knows me know that he was my most favorite person in the band. Also the most maybe know that I said right after the first rumor came out that if he is really away from the band it’s almost senseless for me to still buy KAT-TUN stuff or listen to their music much – even if I want to buy now the new mini album “楔 -kusabi-“ it’s more for me a farewell-gift for them.
Many people on facebook and (mostly) on twitter were bashing me because of that decision and my way of thinking about the whole matter. I should support them, I’m a Hyphen, no matter if they are 5-nin or 4-nin, it’s my duty to still buy their stuff or I’m not a true fan. Well… to explain properly I should begin from the very start. How I got KAT-TUN and Johnnys fan.

I think I was around 13 / 14 but more 13 years old. I just got into Internet and such kind of things and was finally able to find out more about Japan and Japanese music. I started to get interested into Japan thanks to a game called 'Final Fantasy' - I just knew it's a game from Japan so I wanted to know everything about it and later about the country where it came from. I was watching videos about that game on YouTube (which was still kinda new at that time) when I saw by accident a video from Johnnys Countdown. It was just a very small video, maybe 5 minutes. First I was like "What was that?" because I didn't know why I found something about Japanese boygroups when I wanted to watch something about Final Fantasy. But than HE appeared on my monitor.
It was Koki.
That man had a totally different style from all of them. While the most boys in that video looked kinda cute or handsome he totally stood our for me. He looked kinda rebellish but still had the brightest and most kindest smile that I saw until then on someones face. I didn't know anything about JE and also it was before KAT-TUNs debut so I wasn't able to find out anything about this man at that time but I seriously watched that video I think more than 20 times on that day because I tried to find out where he is from (but it was impossible for me because I wasn't able to understand just a little Japanese at that time...). I have to admit that I also knew Arashi at that time but I didn't know anything about Johnnys Entertainment and I wasn't a huge fan of Arashi - I just liked a few songs of them but not enough to get into the fandom.
Than a few month later I visited a friend of mine for the first time. (we are still friends by the way! She is one of my best friends now!). She showed me PVs from Japanese musicians on her computer and also one of a Japanese boyband which she doesn't know but which is kinda new. First we were laughing hard about that PV and about the really stupid feather costumes but than I saw HIM again and I was like "EHHH!".
It was the PV "Real Face" from KAT-TUN. And I knew that it was Koki - even if he looked kinda different. On the first video I saw from him his hair was black with blonde highlights and here he was almost bold. Normally I never liked that kind of guys before but he totally got my attention again. The others were beautiful singers but just his voice made the song "Real Face" special for me. It gave it a good vibe, something very nice.

Back home I begun to search everything about KAT-TUN and slowly I was introduced into the bands of Johnnys Jimusho. The first single I bought from KAT-TUN was "Yorokobi no Uta". Before I never had money to buy such kind of things but when "Yorokobi no Uta" came out I was working part-time next to school so I finally had enough money. And after that all other singles, albums and DVDs from KAT-TUN were following. Thanks to KAT-TUN I was also very interested in their background dancers Kis-My-Ft2 and A.B.C.-Z. and got also fan of them and even more bands and Juniors from Johnnys Jimusho. But still he was the brightest star for me on the stages. I begun dubbing and learning rapping because of him. I was always kinda annoyed about my low voice because it never fit into songs - but thanks to his voice I also found something that I'm able to sing and in which I'm quite good.

One little 'impact' for the fans was when Akanishi Jin left the band but for me he never was part of the band. It sounds hard but even after the first PVs I always thought and said "He doesn't want to be there. He is a solo artist but not a group artist. I think he is gonna leave soon." And it came like that. Many people were sad about that time but I honestly felt nothing. I kinda missed his voice in songs like "Harukana Yakusoku" but that was all. It's not that I dislike him but for me he was always a person who didn't want to be in a group from the very beginning. He never was a real part of KAT-TUN for me - and I know that I will get bashed again for this opinion, haha. But for me KAT-TUN was complete and perfect with KAmenashi Kazuya, Taguchi Junnosuke, Tanaka Koki, Ueda Tatsuya and Nakamaru Yuichi. They all were perfectly together, their voices harmonized together well...

We are back to present time.
I think most of you understand now that I was Koki-fan BEFORE I was KAT-TUN or Johnnys fan. After I had to learn that this stupid rumors are really true I didn't know first what to do.. Really, I couldn't even cry. I just said "Hahaha... you are kidding me, right?". Because...
How can he be out?
Without him this band is senseless.
Without him this band just is gonna do ballads (which are not really my style) and lame music.
Without him this band lost their shining star (for me).
Without him it all doesn't matter so much for me anymore (depends on KAT-TUN).
I know that Koki and the band told me and also the other fans we shouldn't stop supporting them and I will always support their old stuff. I also know that they must feel horrible. I just saw today the announcement about the new tour and the new mini album and it was clearly to see that they also had hard times. But.... Seriously.
How can I support a band in which is nothing left for me to cheer on?
When I am gonna watch their new stuff with my friends they all will cheer on their favorite ones, on their 'shining stars'. But for me there is no shining star anymore. I also love the other members of KAT-TUN A LOT - please don't understand me wrong. But it was always normal for me that I was like "...Ah, Junno.. and now .. KOKI!! GANBATTE NE!". Of course I also cheered for the other ones but when it was Koki I always REALLY wanted him to hear my voice.
People told me it's selfish to stop supporting a band because their favorite person left. But for me Koki wasn't just my 'Ichiban' or my 'favorite person'.
He was the real one who get me into Japanese music, into Japanese culture and language, into the Johnnys fandom and so on. Maybe first I was more a fan of bands like Gackt and X-Japan in the beginning but I just tried to investigate into J-Pop and J-Rock because of Koki. Also because first I thought he must be a member of a J-Rock band.. haha.

I cried a lot that 2 days after the announcement and after my speechless time was over.
But now I can't cry anymore and also I think - maybe it's better. People are making petitions for Koki to come back to KAT-TUN. But seriously... the more they are coming the more they make me now even angry.
I mean....
He must knew about that withdraw for more than 1 month now. Maybe he already found a new agency. He just need some time to calm down and prepare things. I think he loved KAT-TUN a lot but also he accepted already the fact that the 4 of them need to go on without him. And I also think it would be more embarrassing for him to come back after he already withdraw. And lastly:
He is free now.
Seriously, rules in a Japanese agency are always tough but Johnnys Jimusho is almost like a prison. And he is a person who loves to be on a stage, he loves to support others but also he loves his private life, to party and to do crazy things. And you know what?
That was also because he was my favorite.
Because he hates rules like me. Like..

Just to give an example. I also loved to color my hair when I was younger into a lot of colors like pink or red or blue or violett. I love piercings. But also I wasn't really able to find an apprenticeship like that because the 'rules' are that you need to be like the rest of the world.
But he always did what he thinks is right - but still he was a good worker for Johnnys Jimusho. People saying it's his own fault - also for the business.

I study business and management myself and ... sorry, no. When he really needed to withdraw because of that pictures and the club he opened in Tokyo than I think as a business woman:
Johnnys Jimusho is most stupid.
Seriously.
I know that it's a Japanese matter to not stand out, to follow the rules... but I KNOW from my working life that it also works if you are not like that. Even if you have hobbies that are not the norm, even if you stand kinda out - as long as you are doing your work good - who cares? Also KAT-TUNs single sales are really low lately. Do they really think it will change when they kick out someone like Tanaka Koki from the band?

No matter how I see that kind of matter.
From business perspective, from perspective of a band, from perspective of the fans...
It's the biggest mistake Johnnys Jimusho have ever done. And the biggest lost that ever had a band. Sorry if I make some fans from KAT-TUN or NEWS for example angry - I think the lost of Akanishi Jin or for NEWS Yamashita Tomohisa or Nishikido Ryo was also hard for their fans - but .. let's look at the fact.

Akanishi Jin → Was always more a solo artist
Yamashita Tomohisa → Same.
Nishikido Ryo → Always had a big Kansai-Soul and it was known that Kanjani8 is a big priority for him.

Maybe it was just me.. But I saw for all 3 of them the result coming. But Koki WANTED to be a part of KAT-TUN. He just didn't want to follow the stupid rules that were giving to him from the agency.

And also.. Why they announce the new tour and the new mini album just 3 days after Kokis withdraw? I feel so miserable - also for Koki. Of course the band has to go on but.. can't they at least wait for 1 week? Just 1 stupid week until they do something like that?! Also Nakamaru said in the interview already something like "the person in charge of raps is gone." So there really won't be raps anymore but - of course. Who should do the raps? Nobody in the band is able to do proper raps or use a rough voice.

I think I just repeat myself from now on and everyone got my point and maybe understand now why I am maybe not able to follow the new music style that KAT-TUN are going to have. It's not because I want to punish Johnnys Jimusho or something like that. I know - if I would stop buying their stuff it will just harm KAT-TUN. But ....
How can I buy something that I'm not interested at?
Still I'm gonna buy the new mini album, like I said in the beginning. Maybe also to say for myself...

>>Thank you for the past 10 years, KAT-TUN. You always made me happy. Always when a new single, album or DVD came out I was the first one to order it. I wanted to support you always and always. I am so grateful that I saw you at Johnnys Countdown, that I was able to see you. But... without my shining star you are not KAT-TUN for me anymore. You are a new band, a band that maybe won't be my style of music. But still I wish you luck from the deepest of my heart and I will always cherish the times I had with you and together with you and my friends. I will always stay a Hyphen but for me also the name 'Hyphen' is gone with Koki because Koki made this name and without him that name hasn't any meaning anymore. Thank you so so much.<<

I'm crying again now.
But I know they still have a lot supporters - and who knows?
Maybe I'm talking like that now and at the end I'm still able to accept their new music.
But my smile while watching them will never be like it was before because I have no one there to cheer on from my fullest.

Also I'm looking forward for Kokis solo stuff.
I hope so much he is able to release something soon and that he is going to make it very big!
Well... I think from now on I'm more a 'Tanaka Koki supporter' than a 'KAT-TUN supporter' huh? Hahaha...

But also this whole history brought me back to my 'roofs'. I watch and listen again more to J-Rock and Visual Kei things - which I totally left out lately. I can imagine Koki is also gonna do some J-Rock stuff now or some really badass rap songs. I'm looking forward for that now.
My love for Japanese music is not gone with Koki.
Don't worry about that! Haha. Maybe it even got bigger now because from now on I want to support more bands (also from the J-Rock and Visual Kei genre.) And also I'm still a fan of Johnnys bands like Kis-My-Ft2, A.B.C.-Z and NEWS.
Who knows?
Maybe at the end his loss was for me first the saddest day of my life but at the same time it should be the brightest because Koki doesn't have to deal with that absurd rules anymore.....

We will see.

Thanks for everyone who read this until the very end.
I know that some of the parts might make some people angry again but it's my blog so I just wanted to write my honest feelings and thoughts down. I think I also forgot some things or left some parts out but...
Mostly you get my real feelings here and I hope most people are able to understand me now.

My last words for that blog entry should go to Koki himself, huh?
It's kinda embarrassing but I think I want to do it.

>>Tanaka Koki. Thank you so much to bring me more into your wonderful country. Japan is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life. And the language is the most beautiful I was able to hear. I still struggle to learn the language but I want to be fluent in it in the future. Thank you so much for got me into your past band KAT-TUN and bring me so many nice, beautiful and wonderful moments and memories with it. I got a 'Hyphen' just because of you. Also a Johnnys fan. I know you always had a hard time there and I can imagine that you thought in the past 10 years often "I don't want to do that anymore." because people were judging you and criticize you because you are different and because you just wanted to do what's in your mind. I experienced the same things. But thank you so much for still not giving up and keep on going with KAT-TUN until now. I know that your solo stuff will be wonderful and will my heart make jump again! Maybe at the moment it's still a sad matter and maybe your new ways are going to be really difficult but I know you can do it. I mean... you are Tanaka Koki. When someone can REALLY 'make it worldwide' than it's you. You were for me the brightest person in KAT-TUN and you are still. It's not that I am deeply in love with you.. haha. You are still a musician that I don't know personally. But from the side of a fan: Please, never give up and keep on going. I can't thank you enough for what you have done for me the past 10 years and what you still will do for me - I know that your new stuff will also encourage me a lot. And don't let me and your supporters wait too long, okay?<<

German Unity Day + Random mind

Hello there!

Yesterday was „German Unity Day“! So I had no university yesterday because it’s a holiday in Germany. We celebrate on that day the anniversary of the German reunification from 1990. The goal of a unity of Germany was fulfilled on that day. Many people in Germany kinda forget what this day is about or even complain about that because some people are even crazy enough to wish that there were two states again. Not many, but there are some people. To tell the truth: I also don’t really celebrate that day. I stayed at home and enjoyed my free time but at least I know what this day is about and I think that’s important.

Sadly I also had to stay today at home. Well.. maybe it's not THAT much a big deal because I just had one lecture today but still I feel bad about it. I woke up with a big headache and fever. I think it's because my heater wasn't working the last days. At least it works since yesterday but my body still got sick even before. Ahh.. I'm some unlucky girl sometimes. But I'm looking forward for university than next week!!

By the way. Lately I feel like I want to be in some kind of writing project again. I really want to support bands from Japan that not many people know because they are Indie or kinda new. I know many of that bands and wish I could support them a little but I don't really know how. I have a friend who is inside of some kind of writing project. Maybe I'm gonna write her later. But wouldn't that bands be happy if they get support from foreign countrys? If I would have a band I would be super happy if people around the world would support me!! So I want to try it!!

I think todays entry is just about some things that are in my mind at the moment and not really spectacular. But like I said in some blogs before: I just want to write in that blog what I want. Maybe there are also some tutorials, event reviews or something like that in the future - maybe not. That blog is just for fun! Haha.

OH! One last topic!!!
Do you guys now "Masuwaka Tsubasa"? She is next to "Kawabata Kanako" my all-time-favorite model I think... Lately I found pictures from her with red hair. I also have red hair at the moment and I felt so happy that she also had red hair before!!!!! Maybe I'm gonna style my hair kinda like hers in the future. Please check out that pictures!!

So So pretty!!!!!!!

I think that was already all again. But thank you for all of you who still read that things here!!! I know it's really random but still I have fun while doing it!